So since I've moved back my best friend has completely turned in2 a bitch ummm... been hanging out w/ Dustin a lot cuz he's been wrkn on the truck w/ Matt n unfortunately I met Dustin through my douchebag ex... but thankfully he's not around :-) lol There's this chick Stephanie that really likes Dustin so she's over all the time n shes really sweet and she's a lot like me... kinda creepy but freaking awesome at the same time lol... ummm... my brother turned 19 yesterday... went paintballin on sunday... so much fun :-)

a week frum 2day Matt's takn me 2 6flags 4 our anniversary!!! Ive been married for almost a year!!! crazy shit... but yea... we're gunna stay out in valencia thursday night then come home friday but we're not goin hom... we're goin 2 MY OLD HOME!!! fuckin moreno valley!!! lol... its ok cuz Dawn n Tim r leavn 4 laughlin the day we go 2 6flags :-) n that sunday we're goin 2 the del mar gun show :-) Im kinda glad I dnt have a job right now cuz we have so much shit planned... But Im so bored when Matt's at wrk... I sit here all day bored out of my mind... n I cant smoke in my house so I gotta go 2 the car or truck but make sure no1 sees lol... kinda hard when u live in a trailer park lol but its otay... helps us concerve A LOT lol... ummm... I gotta go do the dishes :-)

It was once a dark lonely summer's eve
On the lonely streets of Sunset
When the lord called upon 7 crazy m.c's
J Dog, Charlie Scene, The Server, Da Kurlzz, Shady Jeff, and Tha Producer

Hey! Uh, man you forgot the homie funny man, C'mon!

And I can show you how to hump without making love
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak
And I'll be laying in the sun, bottle and a gun
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak

My clothes are always retro
Sexual like I'm hetero
And I play a bitch like nintendo (ZELDA!)
Take her for a ride in my benzo
Funny as fuck, I should do stand up
Bust caps at the crowd like I don't give a fuck (fuck you)
Got a gold ass grill
Hit me on the sidekick if you wanna chill
Hop in the ride, let's roll
I'm a barritone with a voice that's so low
It'll make your speakers explode
And I'll drop your panties to the floor (AH!)
Let me bend you over, let me lay you sideways
Hop in the back girls, FREAKY FRIDAYS!
If you got beef, then you better step up bitch
Hollywood Undead ain't nothin' to fuck with

And I can show you how to hump without making love
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak
And I'll be laying in the sun, bottle and a gun
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak

Girl, come and smoke my pole like a Marlboro
Introduce me to your mom as Charles
It's Charlie Scene, Shake your ass to the bass
Wait till you see my face, hey bitch!
Wear them tight jeans that show your ass crack
My first name gives Veitnam flash backs
I get drunk and do the same old, same old
Take three girls home, and call them Charlies Angels
What'chu gonna do after we get signed?
I'm gonna lose my mind
Get 30 inch spinners and pimp my ride
Go back in time, be there that night and save 2 Pac's life
Then pay my fine for getting caught fucking on the Hollywood side
I got the game on lock
I'll have a bottle and a glock
with bisceps like The Rock
Buy Toms soul back from Rupert Murdoch

And I can show you how to hump without making love
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak
And I'll be laying in the sun, bottle and a gun
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak

Get down, I'll show you how
C'mon girl, let me show you how
Let's get freaky deaky now

Get down, I'll show you how
C'mon girl, let me show you how
Let's get freaky deaky now

And I can show you how to hump without making love
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak
And I'll be laying in the sun, bottle and a gun
The way you look at me, I can tell that you're a freak

Get down, I'll show you how
If you got beef, then you better step up bitch
Hollywood Undead ain't nothing to fuck with
Get down, I'll show you how
I'll have a bottle and a glock
with bisceps like The Rock
Buy Toms soul back from Rupert Murdoch

BITCH! What motherfucker?!

IM BACK!!!

ONLY 2 MORE DAYS!!! 2MORROW IS MY LAST DAY @ WRK AND THURSDAY IS WHEN WE START MOVING OUR STUFF!!! WE NO LONGER HAVE 2 B IN THIS HOUSE AS OF FRIDAY AFTER WE TAKE THE REST OF OUR STUFF!!! OMG I CANT WAIT!!! IM SO EXCITED!!! SO HAPPY!!! AND SO FUCKING RELIEVED LOL!!!


WELL MURRTOWN... IM CUMMN HOME!!!

so i put in my 2 weeks on monday because my GM is a fucking whore and told me she's not signing my transfer because Im not good enough and she's the ONLY 1 IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE FUCKING STORE that seems 2 think that way... IVE HAD 4 LEADS/BOSSES COME UP 2 ME AND TELL ME THAT WHAT SHE IS DOING IS WRONG... I told her about my transfer 4 weeks ago... and what does she do??? 1 week after i put it in she fucking writes me up 4 a mistake in my boss's department... THEN FUCKING LIES 2 MY BOSS!!! n tells her that she has 30 days 2 change her attitude!!! WTF!!! I hate this bitch dude!!! so now i get 2 sit at our new place doing nothing but organizing 4 the first week then i dunno what imma do lol... but i have 11 more days of this shit hole... im so glad we r leaving... im done w/ the lying bitch i live w/... she's cost us so much money its rediculous... n now i dunno if i can even get my tatt cuz of this bs... n the fact that matt didnt get the crew chief position fuckin pisses me off soooooo bad... he's the bitch of the company... he deserves better!!! but nowhere is better right now... uggg... i cant wait till our bills r cut in half!!! 11 days... 11 days...

So...

only 23 more days in this shit hole!!! we went 2 trexors house on sunday when I got off wrk n dropped off Matt's amp n guitar because it was takn up 2 much space when he's NOT ALLOWED 2 play it here... (the bitch grew up w/ guitarist frum AAF so she "cant stand" the sound of fingers moving on strings... what a fuckn dumb bitch) sumtimes I just wanna go 2 my parents n grab my clarinet 2 make so much noise she cant take it anymore!!! lol... we picked out our room :-) Our roomies r gunna b really quiet and very seclusive... but thats ok... n I cant smoke in the house but thats ok 2... he's got an acre of land so we can go outside n walk around 2 smoke... I cant wait 2 get the fuck out of here!!!

BUT... my fucking GM wrote me up 4 shit that wasnt even my fault!!! My department had ONE missing sign!!! N SUM1 TOOK IT OFF!!! I KNOW I PUT IT UP!!! n she said that division 8(which my boss took ovr) was all messed up... so she gave ME A FUCKING PERFORMANCE WRITE UP!!! IM IN THE MIDDLE OF TRYING 2 GET TRANSFERED 2 THE TEMECULA STORE!!! AND MY BOSS TOLD ME THAT THE GM WAS THINKING OF NOT APPORVING IT!!! FUCK THAT BITCH!!! I REALLY DONT THINK SHE REALIZES THAT EITHER SHE GIVES ME THE TRANSFER OR I AM PUTTING MY 2 WEEKS IN ON THURSDAY!!! STUPID FUCKING WHORE!!! I FUCKING HATE THAT BITCH SO MUCH!!! SHE HAS DONE NOTHING BUT BITCH AT ME SINCE I STARTED WRKN ON THIS TEAM!!! N ALL THE OTHER GIRLS 4GET WAY MUCH MORE THAN ME!!! UGGG!!! I WANNA GO UP 2 HER N B LIKE HEY... U DIDNT APPROVE MY TRANSFER BUT IM MOVING... SO BYE!!!!!!! I wanna walk out so bad!!! But I cant do that... It'll look really bad on my app being fired frum target n walking out on sears like i walked out on the casino... i only got fired frum target 4 working past my 5th hour... how lame is that??? this town really pisses me off... I am so happy we r leaving... n its kinda funny cuz dawn's all butthurt that we're leavn so she's giving us nonstop shit... even tho we smoke her fat ass out with all our pieces (they have 1 piece n they wnt even use it...) n buy a whole bunch of shit 4 her house... the other day matt was playn w/ the puppy n dawn loox at us n goes "u gunna take her with u?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! HER FUCKING DOG WOULD RATHER B W/ ME N MATT THAN HER WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY!!!

The only thing that bugs me a lil bit bout the house is that the road is WAY FUCKED UP... we have 2 drive slow n careful in our fukn truck!!! its all dirt n cracked w/ potholes n shit... haha... n matt really wants 2 get a new car... a nice 1... so i dunno how long we're gunna stay there... we might get an apartment in a year then get our car then buy a house the nxt year... yea the housing market is GREAT 2 buy right now... but no1 is gunna give out a loan... our economy is so shitty that they wnt give any money away until we spend more... but how can we spend more if we dnt have it??? My question is this... if we get our taxes cut we will b making more money therefor spending more money... if we just get another stimulus package (which will only MAX @ 1000 4 a person) who is gunna spend it??? every1 is tryn 2 save money because we dnt make enough... hmmm... does the light go on at all???   Ive come 2 the conclusion that I am voting for Ron Paul... cuz i dnt agree w/ any1... they're all criminals and no matter what sum1 is gunna win... whether is b democrat or republican I just dnt care anymore... no matter who we choose our would is going 2 end in the next 100 yrs anyways

I have a halloween costume that is sooo cute!!! but I uhhh... still have nowhere 2 wear it 2... lol... got a costume without a party 2 go 2 lol... so if any1 knows of a party let me know... its WAY cute... I didnt want the normal mary-janes so i chose these :-)

Im moving 2 wildomar in 3 weeks!!! I cant wait 2 get the fuck outta here lol

"Face To Face"

Don't tell me now with a smile on your face
That you're lost...down and out
When there was nothing left in me

You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head
My silence you break
The smile that you fake (you fake)

[Chorus:]
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't

Save face
Say it to my face

Can I take all the filth in your head
All the words that you said (that you said)
And throw it away (throw it out)

You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head
My silence you break
The smile that you take away

[Chorus:]
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't

That shit you're talkin' don't mean nothing to me anymore
Limp dick...you fuck stick...let's settle the score
Run and hide you know I'll find you anywhere
Motherfucker...two faced prick with hell to pay
What's real is real...it's time to step up to the plate again
Swing batter-batter, swing batter-batter, swing...
What's real is real...it's time to step up to the plate again
Swing batter-batter...fucked me for the last time!

Just take a swing...
C'mon...you should've taken that swing...
Just take your swing...

[Chorus:]
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't

Swing...just take your swing...fuck you!

Just take your swing...
You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head

me n matt r done... the boys came home yesterday... n im so fucking furious!!! the stupid cunt told me that her husband took most her green and didnt leave her w/ "practically any"... so i've been smokn her out... not even comming home on my lunch so i can conserve cuz i didnt have much... so i had about 2 bowls left and when tim walks in the door... she pulls out 5 fucking gs!!!!!!!!! Im so angry... not 2 mention i had a bad day @ wrk... so me and matt got in2 a fight... i didnt eat at all yesterday cuz i was so upset... and we go 2 the laundry mat 2 get sum clothes washed and tim calls matt and matt flips out... not on him but when he got off the phone he said he's done... he's talking 2 tim about it 2day... he's done w/ the guilt trips... we r constantly giving them money and buyn them shit just because and they r inconsiderate mother fuckers... we've done maybe 45 loads of laundry in 9 months!!! and they r blaming us 4 their machines being broken... im so done w/ this shit... and im gunna make sure she fucking knows it... im gunna b in my room until matt's home and im gunna b smokn w/OUT her stupid skanky ass... im fucking done... i dnt wanna fight w/ MY HUSBAND because she's a stupid dumb bitch ass whore who doesnt know how 2 do anything right... she's a 2 faced bitch that only knows how 2 use ppl... im telln my wrk i need a transfer... and if i cant transfer... i quit... this blows but o well this paycheck was lame anyways i hate my life right now

U know its really sad when ur roommates dog would rather b aroud u... dawn n mellissa r home n the puppy is scratchn at MY DOOR 2 say hello... she jumps on me everytime i walk in the room... wnt leave me alone... n i think dawns pretty butthurt about it... not my fault she treats her dog like a human n it dnt like her OR her kid... i wanna leave

Dude... Matt n Tim had 2 leave 4 Bishop on sunday morning... so Dawn has been nice since they left... WTF!?!?!?! Everytime the boys leave she's nice n turns back in2 the bitch when they come back... bleh...

and on sunday night i put sum wrk clothes in the wash machine n I turned on the dryer 2 fluff up their clothes so she don't bitch... hr later the dryer was still cold and the clothes were wet!!! WTF!!! the fucking dryer broke!!! MY CLOTHES WERE IN THE WASH!!! SOAPY WET!!! I HAD 2 SIT UP UNTIL FUKN 12 JUST 2 MAKE SURE I HAD A SHIRT 4 WORK IN THE MORNING!!! and the shittiest part of it all... THEY FUCKING BLAME US 4 THEIR SHIT BREAKING!!! IM ONLY ALLOWED 2 DO LAUNDRY ONCE A FUCKIN WEEK!!! AND I CAN ONLY DO LIKE 4 LOADS OF LAUNDRY!!! MY FUCKING ROOM SMELLS BECAUSE IT HAS BOTH DIRTY N CLEAN CLOTHES!!! IM SO SICK OF THIS SHIT!!! I CANT FUCKING WAIT 2 LEAVE!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im fukn bored!!! I HATE MORENO VALLEY!!! n Im not gettn enough hours 2 make enough money 2 go 2 temecula 2 visit :( I cant wait 2 find out if Matt gets his promotion!!! He just got his own work truck yesterday!!! n he might b getting promoted!!! Things r going pretty good... but if he does that I gotta put in a transfer 2 the temecula sears... I dnt wanna have 2 leave my house @ 2:30 just 2 get 2 wrk on sunday!!! It would b pointless 2 even sleep... lol I hope everything works out... I wanna b able 2 do laundry whenever I want... I wanna b able 2 sit in the livingroom watchin TV w/out sum 6 yr old all up in my shit or her mom slamming shit and yelling... I know we'll b livn w/ 2 othr ppl... and our smokn has 2 b done outside n shit put away... but its on sum property so it dnt really mattr and its ppl our age... Matts friend frum high school... I wanna go back 2 school but what I wanna do costs way 2 much money right now... so lame... o well... I dunno what I did but I hurt my wrist pretty bad... It hurts :( Matt thinks its a stressed tendon cuz I've been ovr wrkn it... I've been movn all the drapes around at work so Im up on a ladder using a REGULAR screwdriver 2 put in screws and set up the damn things... n the big boss came up yesterday and told us that the whole department is wrong cuz sum1 didnt tell us what they wanted... so we gotta re-do the whole thing!!! we r already like a week behind... o well... not our fault the main boss needs 2 go 2 talking classes... lol... not like she cant speak english... its just she doesnt know how 2 talk 2 ppl... she needs a communication class or sumthing... lol... well its 12 n Imma heat up my soup frum last night :-) I wish Jason's Deli would open in temecula... its the fuckn SHIT!!! lol

so... loan didnt go through... what a surprise... not... Im done livn here tho... I cant do it anymore... I got 2 loads of laundry done yesterday... n that's the first 2 loads I've done in like almost 2 weeks!!! And I only got 1 load in the dryer cuz she had her shit in there till like 8fuckin30!!! and she admitted 2 just blowin it off... Im fukn done... I'd rather live in an apartment than this hell hole... get a bigger room 4 just as much money... rent went up here 2 fukn 600 a month as apposed 2 the ORIGINAL 300!!! for just like maybe 160 more we can have our fukn utilities paid w/ a fukn roommate!!! so matt posted up a bulletin on myspace sayn we need roomates n his buddy offered us a room 4 way cheaper than here but its off baxter... my job is still in moval 4 now and baxter is off the 15 not the 215... it would take me 15 mins just 2 get 2 the fukn right fwy... matt said I dnt have 2 wrk but he's still on the edge of his job!!! they hired a new guy cuz tim got promoted in2 the office n the new guy has been nothing but an asshole 4 the past 2 weeks!!! tim threatened 2 quit yesterday and a whole bunch of shit went down at the office... so matts stressn bout his job... might have 2 start washn cars 4 a livn instead of this shnap... I dunno what 2 do... uggg... my mom had cancer n they removed it but she's still in a lot of pain frum surgury... my dog tika (at my parents house) is really sick... when they took her 2 vet the fukn xray machine was broken so they gave em meds n thats it... guess she hasnt been sick since but she still doesnt wanna get up or do anything n she looks sad all the time... :(

Heroes started season 3 last night!!! they showed 2 episodes but i fell asleep at the ending of the first 1... I was sad this morning... but when matt left 4 wrk I went online n watched the 2nd episode... I fuckn love this show dude!!! fukn awesome

o yay... and the banging begins... I cant wait 2 leave this shitty place

this is week 2 of the boys being home... But it just so happens that the bitch comes back... as soon as the boys r home she turns in2 a raving bitch again!!! she either is tryn way 2 hard 2 look intimidating around her husband... she's sick of him??? very doubtful... it would b the other way around... or there is sumthing about matt that she doesnt like... or she's jealous of him... cuz tim would rather hang out and chill n talk and just plain out be around my husband... uggg... i cant wait 2 get outta here... gotta go 2 wrk... l8r

matt's back!!! yay!!! lol... he came home monday... now that the guys r home... dawns back w/ sum attitude... uggg... this is so rediculous... loan broker called said he can get us a loan and 2 apply again... house out in menifee... ok price... lets c what we can do... gotta wrk 2night... 2-10... o well lol i get 2morro n sat off :-)

so i went 2 me n matt's buddy haggards house last night... his new roommate was spinning!!! OMG!!! I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT IN MY LIFE!!! IT LOOKS SO CRAZY!!! SO COMPLICATED!!! I had a blast tho!!!

so... Been working a shit ton... less hours nxt week... only 23hrs... pretty lame...

Matt left 4 colorado last wednesday... he told me last night that he MIGHT b home on saturday night... they have worked 10 days straight now... and he still has over 1000 points 2 do b4 he can come home... but he said that every1 out there smokes!!! lol good thing 4 him hahaha... and i guess my dad told me my only cousin lives about 50 miles away frum where they r wrkn in CO how crazy is that... o and not 2 mention that the day Matt left... I get a call frum my dad sayn that my G-pa died... It was heart failure... nothing doctors could have done even if he didnt die on b4 he made it there... came home 4 lunch and went in the back bedroom and his heart stopped... dad called ambulance n he died about halfway 2 the hospital... but my aunt marcy came in frum seattle and they moved my gpa frum the morgue 2 a private room on the top floor just so my aunt and dad could c him n talk 2 him... they picked him up thursday night 2 get him cremated... my dad thinks that my gpa knew what was goin on because my dad found cash in his dresser and the safe w/ his will in it was unlocked... Im goin back down 2 san marcos 2morrow w/ elyse 2 c my mom n aunt cuz when i went down there saturday my mom was still in houston... she left wednesday 2 go 2 her side of the fams reuinion... crazy how everything happens at the same time... so unfair... gunna b atlease another week b4 they get the ashes bak...

i started a credit account so i can have history that will help when me n matt refinance the house we r gunna buy down the line... found out the same guy that stole my ss# twice b4 used it again... loan broker said matt has no credit history so they wnt give us a loan... gotta wait till oct 2 try again... n since i have absolutely no credit i cant even b cosigner :( I want a house so bad... Me n Dawn have been getting along just fine... I just want 2 b able 2 say "this is MY house n u play by my rules... u dnt like it... GET THE FUCK OUT" lol I want the power 2 say who can come over at what time... n then at the same time have room mates 2 pay my mortage hahaha... no seriously roommates r a help... need 2 find a new job once we find a house... I want 2 keep my morning job but i need more stable hrs... n more fukn money... my team at sears practically runs the whole store... n min wage is deff not enough... lol... i dnt really want 2 go bak 2 waitressing cuz of the night hours but I made a shit ton more money... but no1 is hiring cuz of our shitty economy... life is just passing by and there is nothing i can do about it... Matt's birthday is in 2 weeks... I dnt have anything 4 him... I feel like such a loser... n 2 top it off I swear I've gained 5lbs since he's been gone... i was 113 when I went 2 the doc last... n i just feel so grose... I feel like the world is crashing down on me n its stupid because I have nothing that is really that bad (othr than my gpa but he's w/ my gma now up in heaven watchn ovr) Im such a fucking drama queen... so lame

so I finally got that job! I've been working on the signing team 4 about 2 weeks but dnt actually get my pay trasnfered n show up on the scheduel in 2 weeks! 20 cent raise n hour... not 2 mention that I work at 6 in the morning and get off at 2!!! hellz yea!!! but sundays I have 2 b there at 4am... ewwww... but its gettn easier... matts gettn tired of the place we're stayn at... we calld a guy 4 a loan... hopefully we can get outta here soon... I wanna b able 2 do anything the fuck I want when I get home because its my fuckn house... lol... well... Matt's house but we r married now so... anyways no wrk 2day :-) kinda wish I did cuz i dnt have 40 hrs this week... but o well...

so work is fucking me around... again... went frum 32 hrs a week and now this week i have 9.5... not even 10 fucking hours!!! fucking rediculous... dawn is slowly killing everything... not 2 mention she has a hording problem... but whatever... matt is getting his credit checked when msi's system gets back up... n i cant wait until we leave n she realizes how much more she has 2 do now that me n matt r gone... I cant wait... but the shit still hasnt cleared the account... uggg... i wanna get outta here... i wanna live w/ young ppl again... i dnt wanna have 2 watch what i say cuz of mellissa or get blames 4 the shit dawn does anymore... i know young ppl arent much better... but that's y they r matt's friends... and we're only renting 2 stoners... its a must... cant deal w/ the non smoking roommates after mike... n jp... lol... i just cant wait 2 get the fuck outta moreno valley... i hate this place...

i have been married for 6 months now and still havent changed my name... how lame am i???

its now 5 n matt n tim should b heading back 2 shore... they went fishn @ 12 cuz wrk was slow... o joy... my wrk slow and matt's slow... no side work... fuck... i hate this economy bull shit... im gunna load sum afgooey and hopefully forget about it...

so because 3 more MCA's at my work decided that signing was way more interesting and fun than our job they put in transfers and I might not even get the job I've been waiting a month for because HR said they dnt want any IN STORE transfers... how lame is that... but Susan (the signing lead) said she'd rather have me and any1 so she had a meeting at like 2 and she said she was gunna fight 4 me... so fingers crossed... i had 2 leave at 245 and she wasnt out of the meeting... so i hope things went well... the only sucky thing about signing is sunday is manditory 4AM every week... but its kool... im used 2 being up at 330... get off hella early :-) I really hope this shit doesnt fall through... that would make me a bery sad becca :(

(and yes i know i said bery)